Thursday, December 13, 2012

Final Reflection

This post is dedicated to a reflection on the past year in my Spiritual Formation class.

As it turns out, Spiritual Formation became my favorite class here at Kuyper. It was one of the applicable and interesting class I have had to take. It was also the most convicting. It was a learning and living experience. We learned, and we learned how to practice. Those are things I value greatly in education. A tremendous part of this experience was the disciplines and writing about them on the blog.  At first I thought I would hate it. I thought it would take up too much of my time. I thought writing about the experience on the internet would be too personal. Overall, I just had a disinterested attitude about the whole thing. However, the true experience was far different than that.

1. Foster says spiritual disciplines are not designed to be ends in themselves, but are intended to facilitate a person's journey into greater freedom in living a Christ-like life. How did your practice of the disciplines this semester (either some in particular or all together) help you grow in your faith and obedience to God?

          My experiences of the disciplines this semester greatly impacted my spiritual life. I learned about different methods of meeting God, some of which I had never known about. I learned about disciplines I was curious about. I got to practice things that were outside of my comfort zone. And I learned about all the freedom that can be found in being spiritually connected to God. Some were more successful than others. The ones I enjoyed the most were simplicity, fasting, solitude, and meditation. Fasting and meditation in particular opened me up to listen to God. I did more scripture reading and listening during those two practices than I can remember ever doing. Both of those had a way of focusing me onto the One thing that matters in my life. I was really able to communicate with God through those practices, and developed a better understanding of Who He is. They also helped me realign my priorities and and give them to God. Solitude was a really good refocus. Since solitude is something I already do, I had to work to be stretched during this one. What I learned is that even though I need to take time of solitude, I never actually practiced solitude. I learned the difference through this experience. This will be a discipline I take forward in the future. But I am going to do it right. I know now that I need to rest in God's presence rather than just rest alone. And simplicity. I just love simplicity. Simplicity is the main way that I stay connected to God. I eliminate all of the hindrances in my life and free my heart of anxiety creating clutter. By doing this regularly, I get to put God at the center of my life. It was good to learn a little bit more about it. I think in that respect, it helped me realize that simplicity is a way to obey God.

2. What were some of the distractions or hindrances that kept you from practicing, or practicing to the fullest, the assigned disciplines of the semester? What does this show you about struggle? How do you plan to address this area of struggle?

         This question poses a little trouble for me. As I read back over my blogs, I could not find one specific theme of distractions. For the ones that I struggled with, I had very different reasons for each one. For study, I was not mentally or spiritually invested in the topic. I did not come to it with expectancy, so nothing happened. With confession, submission and prayer, I got so distracted with all of the burdens in my life that I could not do justice to practicing these disciplines. They became just another burned. In a lot of ways, this shows my true nature, and really the nature of a lot of people. With deadlines and demands breathing down our necks, it is hard not to feel like that is our true priority. I think a way that I can correct this thinking to be able to place God first again is to prioritize assignments and obligations after I give time to God. I can regularly practice the Sabbath to be able to have at least a day that I can dedicate only to God. It is a tricky thing to struggle with. I am sure it is something I will be wresting with my whole life. I am thankful for the opportunity to face it head on during this assignment.

3. Identify three disciplines you think mesh well together and explain how you see them interrelating. How would you plan to practice them together?

          The three that I see meshing well together are worship, prayer and meditation. The purpose of each of these has to do with being in the presence of the Father and experiencing true interaction with Him. It just seems to make sense to me that these three happen simultaneously. Because they do. If I decided to practice them together, I would do it on a Sunday. I would set aside my entire Sunday and treat it like the Sabbath. I would go to corporate worship in the morning, and then spend the rest of my day basking in God and they ways worship that morning transformed me. I would set aside specific time that day to go meditate. I would go to a quiet place (hopefully outdoors if conditions allow) and read scripture. I would then pray to God and meditate on what He had to say. It just makes sense to me that Sabbath worship should be a day full of interaction with God through prayer and meditation.

4. Identify one discipline you would urge a new believer to practice. How would you instruct them in this discipline? Why do you think this discipline is especially well suited to the formation of a new believer?

          The discipline that I would encourage a new believer to try is simplicity. Simplicity is that inward and outward lifestyle of reorienting loves into their rightful place. The most transforming part of my spiritual journey has been practicing simplicity. It is one of the disciplines that takes everything in your life and puts it into perspective  I think especially for a new believer, the call to transform can be overwhelming. But starting at simplicity is an easy one to take in baby steps. Don't get me wrong, the discipline of simplicity is definitely not an easy one. It might even be one of the hardest. But it is a good place to start. Once a new believer understands simplicity and begins to it's work in their lives, then all the other disciplines come easy. Once a new believer is on the track of transformation and is rightly ordering their lives, then prayer and meditation and fasting all come as an easy and necessary result. Simplicity is one of the most rewarding because of it's long term effects and inward transformation. It causes everything else to fall into place. I would instruct a new believer to start changing their mindset to always putting first the kingdom of God. In every decision from that point on, I would tell them to ask themselves how fits into their spiritual life. Put God at the center of every decision. And eventually take baby steps into bigger things. I would also advise that they read scripture. Scripture is the main tool to understanding God's role in every facet of our lives.

5. Spiritual disciplines fortify believers against some of the universal struggles and weaknesses all Christians have battled against. Identify and describe an area of weakness you observe in the Kuyper College population. What spiritual disciplines, if corporately practiced, would target this area of weakness?

           I would instruct Kuyper College to corporately practice submission. Submission is the laying down of our terrible burden to always need to be right. (Side note: I am going to try really hard not to get preachy on this one, but it might come across that way. For that I apologize.) Here at Kuyper, we are studying something very near and dear to our hearts. We are all unified with one purpose that we are just on fire for. We as a college are very, very passionate. However, because we are all equally on fire for the same thing, I think we run into a lot of tension. We all run into people who challenge the beliefs we are fire for with the beliefs that they are on fire for. And the fiery differences cause us to be defensive and send us right up against our need to be right. I would like to say that Kuyper is a gracious school where people honor one another's differences. But I just cannot say that is my experience. I have noticed students treat one another this way, but what is even more disturbing is when they treat professors that way. I hear so much disrespect towards professors and staff that is just unfair and unchristian. I think the way to teach students grace and respect is to practice submission corporately. If we were asked to lay down our need to be right and our pride, I wonder at how good our conversations would be. If we were asked to submit to authority and our peers, I wonder at our attitudes would change. I think it would be a great experience for this school to recognize this weakness and take action steps to fix it.

6. What advice would you give the next class of Spiritual Formation students who will be practicing these disciplines?

         The only thing I would tell them is to take it seriously. Put all of your effort into practicing these disciplines. It is not another lame assignment, this is your spiritual life on the line. Don't worry about a grade in this class, just do everything because you want to be closer to God. There are so many good learning experiences from this class. And it is a class we all have to take, so why not enjoy it? Seriously, this a good class that will be one of the most relevant that you ever take. So take it seriously.

Happy reading, and who hoo my semester is over!!

Blessings,

Alyssa









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